Its funny slightly that I'm writing about this, but I got drunk last night. The most I've ever been. I threw up twice, and I think I still smell like the liquor and throw up... I'm starting to feel awful.

When I think why I did it...at the time it was because it seemed like a good idea, a good night to get wasted. I wanted to forget all my troubles. In fact I couldn't stand thinking for another minute. To say that I wasn't comfortable within my skin, was an understatement...
I am by no means, a content person. I try, of course, but it does not always work. I don't want to think, don't want to talk... just want to submerge myself in something different, and layer up the distractions.

It's not such a bad thing to want, not for a short while... distractions don't handle problems in any way at all, but for a small time they can. Either way, I plan on staying away from the liquor for a while. Who likes to be sick anyway?